Why Worry About It?!
Dealing with anxiety is a daily struggle. Anyone else in this world that suffers from it knows exactly what I am talking about. There is one thing that is so irritating to hear from others who do not know what the struggle is like. When someone tells you "not to worry about it" or "just forget it" it does not make anything better. I still struggle with friends that are so close to me I feel as though they are family; when they tell me things like this. Simply because it becomes apparent to me that they have no clue what I am really struggling with.
Anxiety is considered a form of mental illness. I don't like that label. I don't claim that label. I simply believe that anxiety can become an overwhelming feeling within someone's body and mind. Sometimes it definitely takes control and you just have to succumb to it in order to get through it. I have had to do this on my own so I am very familiar. I have had to stay inside for an extended period of time because I just couldn't deal with the public. There have been days that I have called off of work because I just couldn't deal. That is why I have thrown myself into the Biblical Word trying to find healing. Because quite frankly, God is the only person that has not let me down in one way or another.
13 Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,
This verse really hits on the point I am making. Biblically speaking, it is even said in the Bible to "forget what lies behind" or to strain forward to "what lies ahead". I guess this can be taken in so many different ways. However, how I take this verse is that I am being told to stop worrying about the past and look toward the future. Even if I do this, there is no guarantee I will not have anxiety about the future. As a matter of fact, most of my anxiety is based on future events. I "worry ahead of time" is generally what I tell myself.
A quick example of this would be just this past week. Our city was anticipating a huge and aggressive storm that was going to be bringing possible tornadoes. I was pacing my living room, while my husband was at home, looking out the screen door, and mentally trying not to have a full-blown anxiety attack. Ultimately, the city I live in got some rain and a few thunders; and that was it.
However, long stories are made extremely short, this is what I am doing. I am mentally preparing myself ahead of time for bothersome activities that I know of. I tell myself that "I can get through it" or "it is not as bad as it looks on paper". So far this has been working. Maybe not perfectly and I am not expecting anything to ever work perfectly. However, it is helping. And that is what I need.
Just a quick recap; this is Day 21. The challenge that I gave myself was to cover all 100 Days of Anxiety That Is Being Cured by Scripture. Already on Day 21, I can see improvement in my anxiety level. I am actually very excited to see the continued progress. I have noticed one thing. And that is the fact that I have not been taking my CBD oil as much. I was taking this oil several times a day, and even at work. I realized this week that I have not taken it nearly as much as I normally do. This in itself is a huge achievement for me.
As always, if anyone ever wants to reach out to me; feel free to. All of my contact information is on my website or on my blog. I am very transparent as far as contact information because I never want someone to say "they could not get in touch with me".
Until next time.
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