I Will; Will You?
These past few days have been pretty smooth. I really have not had a lot of anxiety stirring up inside of me, which has been extremely refreshing. My retreat is coming very soon (next week) so I expected to be much more nervous than I am. I am not really sure if it has to do with throwing myself into the Bible are not. However, whatever the reason I am grateful.
Lately, I have been looking into the book of Matthew more and more. Right now, I want to focus on Matthew 10: 29-31 and speak my piece for a moment. These few verses if you just read these off on a whim may or may not make sense to you. And I am that person that literally researches everything. So the Bible is no different.
Matthew 10: 29-31 [NIV]
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care.
30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
31 So don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
So what does this really mean? If I am to go off of my very critical thinking brain then I am thinking that God is talking to me about birds. Which I know he is not. Basically, God is not asking any of us to just throw our lives away. He is asking us to lay our lives down for Him. These verses are great because they come with a clear understanding that there is no reason to have any type of fear in regard to our life or death in God's eyes.
You may or may not have heard someone actually quote this verse from time to time. It is seemingly more popular with the older generation if you ask me at least. I may be aging myself right there. However, it's true. Even before I began going to church on a regular basis I was familiar with this verse. Now that is not to say that I had it memorized because I certainly did not. However, I had heard it before.
I am not sure if my reading these verses in the Bible more frequently is truly helping my anxiety. But I am happy to say I have fewer and fewer anxious moments. Now, this verse alone is quite frankly a verse that I do refer to. I am sure that there is a combination of multiple things that have helped. I am still taking my CBD oil. So, maybe it is a combination of both of these. I am just happy to be able to get through the day and feel okay at the end of it.
Until next time.
Kristina
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