Anything Can Trigger an Attack, Right?!
I mean, I have had an anxiety attack just sitting in my recliner minding my own business. But I guess that is not the same for everyone. I have come to realize there is nothing that ‘runs across the board’ for everyone when anxiety is in question. It is getting a bit easier for me now to tell whether a situation or action will be a trigger. It has taken me really stepping out of my own comfort zone, but so far, I have been able to do it. Granted, some days are much easier than others.
This past week for me, my main trigger was the weather. Because I live in Texas, we always seem to have one week of nothing but ice and ridiculous weather. We were covered in several inches of ice last week and unable to leave our home. No one was allowed to go anywhere. Businesses and even city offices were closed. City officials were telling people to stay in their homes, and they were closing highways and roads down so no one was going anywhere. This was a total crap-fest to say the least!
This past week I have just imagined sitting with Jesus and talking with him about my anxiety. I know that may seem odd to some people. However, to me it was relaxing. I kept referring to Isaiah 41: 13-14 where it reads:
13 For I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. 14 Do not be afraid, you worm Jacob, little Israel, do not fear, for I myself will help you,” declares the Lord, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.
It was just so much easier for me to get through it knowing He had my hand. He was with me every step of the way. Even if my steps were only in my apartment, it was still a bit easier. Knowing that I can rely on Him, and He says that He will be there to help me; I needed to hear that. I needed to feel that.
I was finally able to let my barriers down a bit and talk to my husband about how bad my anxiety is. I was surprised as to how receptive and understanding he was to it. He did not blow it off or downplay it. I was very happy about that. Because for me, it is a big deal. I try not to burden him with much because he is very busy with work and family right now. However, I was very happy with how he wanted to ensure I was ok, and I was feeling better. Just one more reason I love him.
This was a pretty good past week. I did not have any debilitating attacks, so that is promising. Right?! Thankfully, in my book, it surely is.
Until next time.
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